hello blog readers i am back!!
this time i am realli goin to start blogging bout
interesting happenings and nt emo stuffs
bt haiz... sry bt to disappoint you ppl..
i still have to say bout my fuckup results...
hate it!!!!
i went to sch wif high confidence and wateva...
onli til the first period and mi mood is gonna
change for the rest of the day, start of seeing
disappointing results(fuckup man!!!)
first to come was mi worse eva for eoy(humanities!!!)
guess hw much i get in total?
i get a fucking low 29(shud be de lowest in
class ba)...
this is totally due to mi geog...
i gt single digit for tat and it is
gerrard's no( 8)/50
fantastic rite?!!!
hahaha....
i was laughing at myself wen i saw tat cos
i did nt realli study for it i started too
late causing this type of low grade...
mi fault lor hu else?...
using com say wanna check for data
in the end play games den hw? 8/50 result lor..
there is higher chance of passing ss bt i
blew it in mi essay( i gt 3/25 for essay),
(18/25 for source base so gd)....
end up total a low 29....
den nxt to come our belove form cher eng....
i was quite sattisfied wif ppr1 bt 2 die due to summary which i did nt complete
bt in de end total manage to jus pass
zun zun 50%...
disappointed by tat..
den came the worse maths....!!!!
wen i saw myself getting 42/80 for ppr1
wen i expected something much bttr
i knew ppr 2 is over...
and realli die.... 38/100(terrible) some guy was
disappointed wif tat too...
so maths tally 44.44444444% meaning fail...
so from den i started to realli change mood and
get emo and depressed...
den a maths i wanted a pass cos
i hav put in lots of effort for tat and i
noe mi facts bt i was disappointed wen i get it back..
i gt jus 23/100 so sad... a total diff from wat i wanted
2 mrks improvement form mye(terrible rite?)
haizzz....
nxt is physics expected fail i gt 37%(terrible deprove)
nxt is chinese ppr2 nt happy wif it gt onli 38/70(bad, deprove oso)
nxt get ppr 1 still can bt screwd up by letter
writing and last part of compo(no time finish a pity)
den nxt day get chem i was expecting a pass
bt as soon as i get ppr 1 i knew i fail liao
i gt onli 18/30(bad omen)
den finally came ppr2 and i failed by 9 in the end
bt i hae made twice improvement
from mye( gd thing lor)
den after sch chua say i can do it wan,.,,
wth... seldom
heard such specch from him...
omg all this comclude 1 thing i
mite retain(i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!!)
cos i onli pass eng and 1 other sub
which is chinese a pity i fail maths...
dun noe wth happen to my maths...
others can get as high as 82% bt i get fail
wth....heii.....i use to be gd in maths wth
is happening nw....a a1 from maths to a d7...
wth is this,,,wat's happeningg..,,
i dun wanna retain...if i do it realli destroy mi life
i will have to waste 1 extra year in life
and if i do retain nt onli am i
affected, the rest will too,
ppl like mi parents, tutors, teachers, classmates, buddies,
the girl i like and of course myself the most
our pride and hope will be gone...
they dun wan me to retain the wan
the best of me(i can feel their disappointment
wen yong annoucnced tat i fail mi maths td)
haizz.wat happen to me...
maybe i realli did nt study and put in enuf effort..
haizz.
blame myself den...
mite me my relationship wif her tat
cos me to be distracted....
maybe i have realli been thinking of her,,,
ya i admit i was thinking of her wen
i was doing my e maths ppr 2
cos during tat fatefull day
the morning i have no choice bt
to sit behind her and tat cos mi distraction and...
i was thinking of her during the ppr
haizzz....
why if i did nt? wat would have happen?
pls....i dun wanna retain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will be letting everyone down if i do especially myself,
parents and her and my buddies....
haizz!!!!!
hope i make it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
\i must make it!!!!!!!!!!!
dun wan retain!!!!!
i promised you ppr b4 so i can't!!!!
i mus nt retain!!!!!!!!!!
pls!!!!!!!!!
i hope so i wish so!!!!!!!!
i dun wan to let everyone down!!!!!!
my life will be gone if i retain!!!!!
i mus safe me life!!!!
no retaining!!!!!!
i hope wen they conclude and
discuss my fate tmr during
promotion day they will give me
my chance hope mr er can
speak up for me....
i hope so,.....no retaining pls!!!!!!!
i dun wan to break mi promise!!!!
i promise tat i will promote to sec4 nxt year and
i hope i will...no retaining pls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate to retain!!!!!
nvr eva gonna let it happen!!!!!
i dun wan it to happen to me for the first time eva,,,
i hope nt!!!!! pls!!!!!
save me mr er and chers....
decide my fate wif serious thought
dun destroy my life....
help!!!!
i dun wan retain!!!!!
ok shall end my blog here....
it's quite emo rite?
sry blog readers... will start real blogging soon.....
sry!!!!
and i dun wan retain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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